It’s okay. It probably wouldn’t make a difference anyway. Sorry if that’s too blunt.
Yes, I do. I’ve woken up shaking, crying, etc. Especially the really realistic dreams. Like… ones that actually seem like they could wind up in reality. But sometimes, I think it’s good we don’t know to decipher them. They’re mysterious, confusing, overwhelming, captivating, and amazing. We usually forget most of our dreams anyways. Just another implement about the human mind.
Hm, good question. I don’t have much experience with guys, but I do know what I look for in them. And these are the things (in no particular order): Patience; it’s very important to me. I especially, because I don’t necessarily like rushing into things, sometimes you need to think before you act, you know? Optimism, and a good sense of humor and sarcasm. You know… always looking at the bright side of things, the ability to make you feel better and laugh, and someone who isn’t afraid to just joke around a bit. Sensitivity, confidence, and competence. He’s confident, but sure as hell not arrogant in a serious manner. Oh, someone who’s passionate about life, and I know everyone has their ups and downs, but it’s a good thing if someone could still appreciate everything. Having other passions in life is wonderful too, you know, hobbies, interest, family, friends, and etc. It’s a plus if we have any of those things in common too. Someone who doesn’t rely on other people for their own happiness. Someone who is appreciative, understanding, and forgiving. I understand that it’s natural for people to hold grudges, but sometimes you just have to forgive and move on, or forgive and forget. Either way get over it. Open-mindedness, honesty, and education… of course. Those things are self-explanatory. Someone who’s not afraid to try new things and be adventurous, and someone who’s not afraid to tell me how they feel, but who’s not afraid on telling me when to back off and leave him alone for a while, because everyone needs alone time. And with the education thing… I not saying you have to be a genius, but just as long you have common sense, at least have an idea of what you want to do in your future, college- bound, and you don’t have to think twice when someone asks you what 9 x 3 is, ha. But skipping school and classes every week, is bullshit. You might as well just drop out, just saying. Trust. Big thing for me. Basically, someone who’s willing to earn my trust, and allows me to earn theirs. And, I don’t mean to sound shallow but I at least have to be attracted to you… I mean, looks are what captivates your attention, but personality makes you stay. And those are just some things that popped into my brain when I read that question. I’m not saying that my ideal guy has to be exactly these things. I know I have high standards, but I set them up myself. You know… I’m only 16, and I don’t think it’s bad to know what I’m looking for already. But there’s always time to grow, or if not, you accept people for the way they are. Nobody’s perfect, we all know that. Sorry this is like an essay -_-
Well, first of all, I did not go to school. Which is very unlikely of me. And I also stayed over my cousin’s house the whole day eating some SONIC, and the weird thing about it is that… I don’t feel guilty about missing school. I usually would, because I always have, and because I’m the type of person who wouldn’t miss school even if I was sick, because I was afraid I was going to miss too much work. But you know what? Breaks are good. And laughter is the best medicine, and I’m about to get some more of that when I watch American Idol with my relatives =) Sigh…. good day, good day indeed.
i really liked the apology someone gave you. i thought it was really sweet. i wish some of my close friends-well, use to be close friends would give me an apology like that… =/
I did too Beverly. And you know what, those “use to be close friends” of yours don’t deserve your time of day. You always have a smile on, every time I see you around school, and you know what? I’m sure the “close friends” you use to have aren’t the reasons for those smiles. So fuck ‘em. =)
I’m sorry you can’t say this to me personally… because I know I would forgive you. And I’m sorry that… that’s all I could say….